Rough Beginnings

Yesterday was pretty awful. I woke up just not feeling right. After taking Lea to the park and later laying her down for her nap, all I wanted to do was lay down myself. Soon I was experiencing some rather intense cramping followed by bleeding. Miles had been sitting with me and we were both worried enough to wake Lea and go to the ER. Hours later, I was told that although the pregnancy seems to be “okay”, there is bleeding at my uterine wall where the embryo is attempting to implant. Failure of the embryo to implant causes about three-fourths of lost pregnancies, and I am now at significant risk for miscarriage. There is nothing that I can do. No bed rest could help this and the doctor said that I could go running and it wouldn’t sway the outcome either way. Now I am waiting to see what happens and I am trying not to get depressed over this.

On that note, I am so thankful for Lea and for the fact that Miles is here with me. Something similar happened during my pregnancy with Lea (though it wasn’t exactly the same and I was put on partial bed rest with her), and now I have a perfectly healthy and wonderful little girl. I had to go through these same emotions alone before and having Miles with me now has made a world of difference. This may very well work out. So here’s hoping.